I AM AN ADDICT *I take a breath* Boy, that was vulnerable and there is a ton of shame and blame that goes with that statement, even now. I have always known I have an addictive personality. I obsess over the smallest thing, for example: right now, I have TWO pkgs of cayenne pepper open […]
The cookies went around the circle. It was 2 o’clock, and I was hitting what I call “the wall”. I could sure use the sugar; my mood was dipping, my energy slipping … and they were these Digestive cookies with the chocolate on top. I used to have them when I was a kid. We […]
Secretly, I think you know who you are. I think secretly you know EXACTLY who I am talking about, and YES, you think this song is about you … and I am here to say – I know you know -and you know that I know you know that I know… I watch you walk […]
He said it to me as he looked me lovingly, purely in the eyes… I took a breath and exhaled the disbelief and inhaled the pure love it was said in. Snapshot that moment, and it hit me – I could rest, I could BE, I could just … And that, whatever it was – […]
All the lights faded, trophies had been given out, and I sat there … the crescendo of all my thoughts and emotions crashing down on me … I had just completed what felt like the longest prep season ever for a competition that I didn’t even want to be in … and … I sat […]
It’s been a while coming, but here are some before and after photos – At My Largest I was consuming 500- 900 Calories a day and I was approximately 188+ LBS I have a super messy story that is layered not only with intertwining stories but also perceptions of reality that are open to interpretation. […]
The Gifts My mom passed away in 2007; it was not quick and it was not painless. She left me a legacy of love and strength. She left an example of determination and stubbornness with a healthy side of crazy. Over the years since she has been gone, I have come to love, understand and […]
Like many people I have a list of things “TO DO”. I lovingly refer to it as “My Dinosaur” A wise woman once asked me: and how do you eat a Dinosaur? One bite at a time. Every day I take a bite. Sometimes I bite off more than I can chew – and I […]
