I have hesitated sharing but ultimately if you are reading this, I closed my eyes and hit “Post” My view is controversial at best and based in my own experiences on both sides of the suicide spectrum. In 2002 I had a breakdown. I didn’t see it coming. In hindsight I can see it clearly […]
“I’m happy with myself where I am at, I have accepted who I am. I call Bullshit. Straight. Up. Bullshit. Even competators who have just won trophies (who have the “perfect bodies” tonge in cheek) say things like – I’m so happy with the way I came in, I cant wait to build more legs, […]
What went wrong?? Often, we question our parenting as our kids do silly, non-sensical things. They put the plastic containers on the Barbeque, they scrub the T-fal pan with the SOS, they do things that we shake our heads at and say “That’s just common sense! How did you miss the GENE?” I remember watching […]
I AM AN ADDICT *I take a breath* Boy, that was vulnerable and there is a ton of shame and blame that goes with that statement, even now. I have always known I have an addictive personality. I obsess over the smallest thing, for example: right now, I have TWO pkgs of cayenne pepper open […]
This is a joke in our home, and it never seems to get old. We use it as we explain ADD / ADHD behavior, getting distracted, or rediscovering something. For me that’s movies – I forget movies almost immediately after the credits roll and I get up from my seat- and I can be very […]
I am frustrated. I am frustrated by all the indirect communication going on and the interpretations of it. In a world that is quickly filling with the “spiritually intuitive, perceiving empathetic or knowing individuals” etc etc. I am increasingly frustrated with the lack of communication that is actually happening. Here is the situation- I am […]
The cookies went around the circle. It was 2 o’clock, and I was hitting what I call “the wall”. I could sure use the sugar; my mood was dipping, my energy slipping … and they were these Digestive cookies with the chocolate on top. I used to have them when I was a kid. We […]
Mike and I recently sat and had filthy martinis in Golden, BC (OK, I did – he had a beer). Overlooking the river, we toasted our 18 years together, 12 years married, and I can’t help but think back. Mike doesn’t like to … he tries to get as far away from that time as […]
All the lights faded, trophies had been given out, and I sat there … the crescendo of all my thoughts and emotions crashing down on me … I had just completed what felt like the longest prep season ever for a competition that I didn’t even want to be in … and … I sat […]
Mom, today is your birthday… I am remembering your smile, the way you hysterically laughed at your own jokes, the way your lips pursed when you were upset, and the way only your bottom teeth were visible when you talked when you were really mad. Or your face that time when you danced with the […]
